When it comes to "about me," probably the less said, the better! (My ego does get carried away)! Or, I can talk about the "me" that has a form (a physical body with a history, a "person") and the formless/invisible "me."
Me as a form, as a person with a history.
I grew up in a small town in Montana that bordered the Blackfoot Indian reservation. My closest friend in primary school was a Blackfoot Indian,"Beaver" Bird. I attended Saint Norbert high school, a boarding school for boys in Wisconsin, the Norbertine monastery after my senior year of high school.
After four years of study toward the priesthood I left, tried a couple of colleges in Montana before joining the army. I received a discharge after 6 1/2 months in 1962. I got a BA from Saint Norbert College, where I met my future wife. We had two kids, divorced after nine years, and I moved to California in 1979, met my next wife and remained married for 35 years until she died of Alzheimer's in 2018.
The formless (invisible), essential me.
I had an inkling of "something" deeper inside me while growing up. I had flashes or glimpses of some force/entity that wasn't graspable. I didn't get a handle on it till I opened up The Power of Now in 2008. I read that, "your thoughts are not real." Bombshell that exploded in my mind. That was the beginning. Over the next 10 years, my wife's deteriorating physical form accompanied and forced my still-guarded and protected "egoic self" to gradually relinquish control and accept the increasingly difficult challenge of caring for her. After her death, I immersed myself in the Eckhart community, hosting monthly meetings and attending retreats at home and abroad.
That brings us to this moment, now. I'm still at it, still beginning each day fresh and ready to start again, the beautiful road to reclaim paradise. I'm not "there" yet, probably never will be, but, in the weird world of Presence, I already am.
